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uhm...
i thinks for many times....and ask my self...
do i love him???
huehuehuehe....it's so poetics i think??
hehehe...but...last few days i feel so tizzy...coz he didn't call me or sms me...and i was also thinking bout so many matters bout myself...so, when he didn't contact me for a few days...i feel so tizzy n always thinking bout him...
uhm....am i really love him? or this is just a happy feeling coz there is someone take care of me and i don't want to lose that feeling...???
i try to searching into my heart and looking for the answer...but i not found the answer....
but i know....i take care of you...and i still open my heart for you.....
huehuehuhe......
i'm not in good condition now...
be a little sensitive...
dunno....even jokes, its can make me angry too....
uhm....it's 4 days before TGM...too many pending jobs and things confused me...
logistic...medicine...and MD too...
i just hope everything will be fine and well done...
sad...angry...rr....dunno...i miss him....so miss him....
i'll be waitig until friday...wait him call or sms me again...huhuu.....buncitz..what r u doing right now???
last saturday was jul bday....at friday night i waited till midnight n call him...just said hepy bday n talk a little...after that i at once slept because i was very sleepy...
last saturday i spent my time in JP...i arrived at JP around 9.30 in the morning 'till 7 in the night....when i arrived i direct to the room and started gongyo and daimoku 'till 10.30...then i went to meeting room, there were c'may, lena, bagus, irene, n ko'feb...while waited the others...we all started talking about 'apresiasi GM' n c'may decided to change that with sesi gosyo 3...that contained discussiond about altar equipment and the conduct of gongyo daimoku...we all planned to make a video and take some photos to help the moderator explain and increased the interest of participants TGM and i will edit that photos and video....
times goes by so fast and it's already afternoon, all of us went ate behid JP 'till 2.30...and finally....we open the meeting at 2.30....so many things to disscussed and at 5 c'may should back home...so we all continued the meeting without c'may and cung lead the the meeting 'till 7...it's so tired me.....and finally i back to home with lena....so tired.....
then last sunday...there's dance exercise at 10 morning...an like usual....they were late....when all of us arrived...c'sel still not came...then we all talked about our costums and what things i must buy....so the exercise started at 11 when c'sel caming and ended at 12...bcoz i must went at 1...i went to TA with jul...watched Kungfu Panda...and then ate Pizza....then i gave him his bday's gift...then he picked me up to my home...i arrived at 6...when i arrived at home i felt so tired..i went to my room...and i asleep till 9 at night.....but i was so happy can celebrated jul bday.....
tonight is the day of brifieng TGM...not was felt that TGM will be held 11 days again but to much preparation still not finish and i must preparing many matters....just prepare my self and sure myself that i can....
last friday i went to intan's house to pray for her father.....it was 3 years after her father dad...
from my office i went to harmoni used busway n i must met irene here...but went i arrived at harmoni, irene said that sindhy want to go there too...so i waited for them and ko afen...
i walked to asaba while waited them, but lena and asti come first after me, then ko afen...irene and sindhy was late again!!! we all convoy (3 motorcycles) to intan's house...and we met margi in the middle, and then 4 motorcycles were convoy....
when we all arrived, daimoku was already start, we all go upstairs and when we all sit, dokyo sodai was started...it about an hour i think....then we all ate, intan n her fams prepare some food, rice, pudding, oranges, and the other....it's so fun for me...gathered, talked n played with them until night...so fun.....then we all back to home at nine....we convoy again, lena with sindhy, ko afen with asti n i with irene....
uhm...nothing happened in saturday as i remember.....
in the night jul called me, talked for sunday's plan.....we talked about half hour....then after that i went sleep.....
and finally...sunday....it was a very tired day for me...
i had dance exercise at 7.30 in the morning!!!!....we had exercise until 9.30 because the room will be used for daimoku....then i back to my home...take a shower and prepare my self for MF Ultah....MF Ultah held in Kijang campus on 12.00...
in 11.20 i went to syahdan...n met fenny, then we went to kijang used M24....
when i arrived there, jul was already arrived to, and we walked together...and the bad thing...argi saw i, jul and fenny...
okay.....one fatal mistaked!!!!
these event its fun enogh...but the sound was bad.....but it's really fun....then....the second thing that was so odious....when MC asked senior to said about their ....i forgot the MC's name....hehehe....but she asked jul for come to the front....and....alfred point me too....so...i n jul come to the front...and they take photos of me n jul!!!!
n the last....!!! okay...they did'nt see me and jul together...but nuke said something in front of me, jul, and the others 04....she said to jul to bring me to my home....and jul just smile....and bernard was worse....he scream to me, for waiting jul....huaaaaah....
i and the others 04 used M24, but i alighted in syahdan...i waited jul here....then we went to CL...i bought HP for my mom...and then we went to gramed for a while....then jul pick me up to my home... ^^ he's so kind to me...
last friday....i went to BION at MTA...
i went at night, from my office...i went to CL with busway...
and jul wait me there...then we go to TA with him new motorcylcle...
uhm...nothing special at BION....it's so usual....i meet Ryan too there...we talked a little....
after talked with some of the committee, we went to hokben...ate dinner...and talked each other...
then i bought rotiboy...then we back to home at 9 PM...jul picked me up to my home...
the...saturday....like usual, there was MD exercise...i felt hopeless...and want to give in...dunno...maybe it's becaused i so tired of everything......hopes that i can withstand 'till the end....
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