end of this year.....

huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.......
long time no blogging.... finally i have a time to blogging.... :D

oh yeah....i not yet post about my new job....
since last month (november), i no longer work as graphic designer, but i change my experience into HRD...work at Arista Group (ini bergerak d bidang automotive - dealer mobil + motor)
...my job now...so far so good....i making SOP of company, handle recruitment (but i don't interview them, just phone, make the schedule, give a test, etc... :p)...uhm i input PK (Penilaian Kinerja) for salesman too...just it i think...hehehe....tapi so far.....aku ngerasa enjoy kerja disini....the people is good....:D most of them so kind, include the manager....yah...disini gap antara atasan n bawahan tidak terlalu besar lah....krn para manajer nya juga tidak terlalu sering memperlihatkan power mereka ( ato aku yg tidak melihat yah...????) huhuehueuhee.......
ohiya.....disini staff HRD na cuma 2...aku n 1 rekan ku lagiy, her name is estu.....with our manager, so hanya ada 3 org yg mengisi divisi ini...padahal jumlah karyawan sangat banyak (about 1200 or more...) yupz.... aku baru menyadari bahwa it's so a big company setelah aku masuk k dalamnya...
tp 1 kelemahan ku....sudah hampir 2 bulan kerja disini...tp lum afal nama rekan2 disini...terutama bagian accounting...krn mereka di lantai atas, n jarang lunch bareng, jd na ga kenal2 deh...... :( kalo dengen divisi lain, krn ruangan ku di luar ruangan finance, otomatis ini yg paling awal diinget...selain itu dengan ruangan adm juga krn bersebelahan n lumayan sering ketemu jd juga dah banyak yg aku kenal...juga dengan divisi vehicle...walaupun di lt. bawah, tp sering lunch bareng mereka, jd dah kenal deh...) huehuehee.......oiya...dgn IT juga krn staff nya tidak terlalu banyak n sering berhubungan..jd na aku dah kenal deh ama mereka... :p
n yg pasti krn dr urusan rekrutmen, aku juga jd kenal n sering ke para manajer, juga untuk urusan SOP...huehuehuhe......yah ini terutama krn lunch bareng jugha siy, ada ada sosialisai dengan rekan2 ku semua.... (khan aku lunch na itu dpt catering dr office...hehe.....)
uhm....aplg yah??? masih banyak siy sebenernya....tp krn dr td bolak balik sana sini.....jd lupa deh........... :p
tp so far so good lah....n ternyata 1 of my dreams come true! yupz....aku berhasil masuk dalam lingkungan HRD...n walaupun baru, tp lumayan lah yg aku pelajari disini.....aplg divisi ini hanya terisi oleh 2 org staff...n entah knapa, jd na untuk SOP n rekrutmen aku yg handle....yah lumayan lah jdnya, walo baru tp ilmunya dah dapet dikit2.... :D

beside of my new job...i still have some story about my life...n my ichinen...huehuehuee.....now belive it or not....
aku jd percaya apa yg namanya ichinen....huehueuehe...........
krn yah...percaya ga percaya tp keinginan ku yg keliatannya ga mungkin, tp bisa terwujud...huehuehuhee......
iyah...yg penting yakin yah....
pertama waktu TGM....maw cuti seminggung buat TGM ajha, d sekitar 1 month sebelum pergi aku baru brani ngomong n ternyata, langsung dikasih!!!....huaaaaaaaah lega na saat itu.....jugha tekad ku untuk masuk HRD....dah pengeeeeeeen since semester 5, n ternyata keinginan + usaha ku ga sia2, lingkungan kerja na juga OK pula..... trus buat KGM bsok.....walopun d awal sempet duh susah neh....tp setelah itu langsung yakin bisa ikut taon baruan d ciapus....walopun juga 30-31 harus balik Jakarta (bcoz i still work) n naik k ciapus lagiy.....yupz....aku tiap ditanya mama papa, slalu yakin kalo aku bisa bolak balik githu walopun harus ngeteng, tp tetep pengen balik k ciapus....eh ternyata bner ajhaaaaaaaa, in d last meeting yesterday, edwin said dia nyetir pas balik na.....n aku ga perlu ngeteng....otomatis langsung lancarrrrrrrr dah urusan balik k ciapus, ga dicegah2 lagiy ama bo-nyok...huehuehuehuehuheeee................senangnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......

oiyaaaaah, niy hari brarti hr terakhir aku bisa ng blog d tahun ini yah..........bcoz nanti sore aku dah naek k ciapus...yupz, bsok dah KGM, ga brasa yah cepet banget waktu berlalu.....padahal rasany...baru kemaren aku nari buat KGM, tp ternyata itu dah setaon lewat....huaaaaaaaah....tambah tua dah aku.......
hehehhee.....dah lama ga ng blog....rasana jd ga beraturan gini....aku pengen nulis, tp amburadul rasany......wkwkwkkwkkw...............

oiyah khan.....ada lagiy niy......irene kaco ah skrg......masa demen banget ledekin aku ama .... (kosongin ga yah??? :p) padahal khan ga ad ap2 antara aku ama dya.....cuma krn aku tau sedikit hal ttg dia....jd makin demen dya ledekin, trus katanya aku tiap ad ap2, selalu ngbelain, yah menurutku siy bukan membela, tp mencoba memberi pandangan dr sisi lain githu, soalna ada sisi bener ny juga, yah biar bisa meredam githu laaaaaaah :p tp yah kebetulan juga siy, aku taw sedikit ttg dya, irene jd makin bertanya2 deh....hahahhaa.....iyah jugha siy yah....waktu itu khan dya pernah crita sedikit ttg masa kecil dya.... :p juga ttg kebiasaan keluarga dya (dikit banget tp) hehehheee...tp yah ga ad ap2 lah???? wkwkwkwk.......

ap lagiy yaaaaaaaaaah...????? siap2 buat KGM dulu ajha kali yah????soal na...tar sore brangkat, tp masih ada bbrp yg lum ku beresin niy, terutama peralatan muka ku (wkwkwk...padahal cuma sabun muka, cream muka ama toner ajha)...tp masih ad yg kulupain kayana...wkwkwk....dah ah, ampe sini dulu ajha yaqsssss..... :p

DuFan...

uhm....
i forget to write.....
last week...uhm...14 sept exactly...i went to DuFan with jul...
he pick me up @ my home about 10.30am...but when we still on the way...it was raining...
so we took shelter from rain in front of empty building...
we arrived at DuFan about 11.00am i think....
then we start play...

1st wahana we rise was extreme log (wahana 3D). uhm...it's good enough for the start...
about 10 minutes i think....then we went to another wahana...
ontang-anting (i can't enjoy the sky like few years ago when i rise this last time... >_<) istana boneka (it's time to relax and talked so much....uhm...talked bout anything....oh yeah...)
halilintar (okay...scream!!!...hueheuhee.....)
rumah kaca (i could be lost here... >_< >rumah miring (so short route...but i get a little headche here...)
bombom car (i so stupid in this game....and i need more time to handle the car... >_<)
perang bintang (my point also half of jul's point here....just 4300 for me and 8700 for jul... T_T)
arung jeram (so fun here...exactly i want to play again...but my condition was not enable me to play again...)
niagara-gara (i was so strartled when we come down...it's really 90 )

then we change our clothes with dry ad clean clothes...and we ate in McD...
while we waited the time, we come in to balada kera (uhm...like we're in the cinema...heehhehhe....)
n then jul talked to me about our relationship....maybe it's took 1 or 2 hour we talked... >_< bianglala...in the night of couse...while we saw the night scene of Jakarta, and still talked anything we can talked....

jul pick me up to my home again, we arrived about 8.30pm
it's so fun day....ut i fell so tired to...because we walked around all the day... ^^

bored

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Ternyata hati, tak bisa berdusta
Meskiku coba, tetap tak bisa
Dulu cintaku, banyak padamu
Entah mengapa, kini berkurang

Maaf ku jenuh padamu
Lama sudah kupendam
Tertahan dibibirku
Mauku tak menyakiti
Meski begitu indah
Ku masih tetap saja…. jenuh ….

Taukah kini, kau kuhindari
Merasakah kau, ku lain padamu
Cinta bukan, hanya cinta saja
Sementara kau, merasa cukup

Maaf ku jenuh padamu
Lama sudah kupendam
Tertahan dibibirku
Mauku tak menyakiti
Meski begitu indah
Ku masih tetap saja…. jenuh ….

Whether why, suddenly i want to sing that song and give it to him....
In fact if i think about it, i wasn't bored with him, but i was bored with this situation...
suddenly i feel so so tired 'bout our relationship....didn't know....what only i felt this feeling...???
i just want to clear everything bout our relationship....i think it's so simple....but how bout u???

My Graduation Day....

helloooooo....
i forget to write bout my graduation here....
it's already a week ago...exactly, on 2 august...!!!
yupz...2 august at 08.00 PM in JCC (Plenary Hall)
i was happy...of course...coz i waited 6 months for my commencemet day!!!
but when i came to the stage...n receive my 'tabung', i just felt... 'oh...just it???'
uhm.....nothing special for me...hehhee...human never be satisfy yeah??

i get up early this day, went to ie siulie's home at 5.30 in ther morning to bun my hair...
then i make up myself...it's so simple..
we all went at 6.45 from my home....arrived at JCC, taking some picture of me and famz...
and enter to Plenary Hall...of course, my commencement started at 08.00 PM.....

my commencemet ended about 10.45 PM, i met some of my friends after that and make photos with them...then met my famz in lobby and made some photos with them too...
then when i and my famz decide to back to home, i met welly, n he said that he bring mw certificate of TOEFL, so i've been waiting for him to take my certificate on him car...
then..i and my famz back to home...
really2 nothing special at this day.....

oh yeah....at the afternoon, jul sms me...said her congratulations for me....
(but i felt so sleepy.....so i reply his sms so late)...
but after i reply his sms, he call me for a while....
its really2 complete my happines... ^^

last saturday :)

hi...there is something that i forget to write yesterday...
it's bout the funeral....yupz...
last week janny's grandma was died....i knew it from acip...she sms me in friday's morning, 1 day after i back from palembang...then i chat with her, but she said that she can't go to funeral parlour...so that's night i try to ask jul if he can accompanied me to there...but jul can't promised me...he said if i try to ask my friends first...okay...i think jul is too busy that time...and i try ask my friends but there no one can go....
but saturday, after jul ended his class, his call me and sms me again, said that he can accompanied me to atmajaya funeral parlour......we be there from 2.30 'till 3.30 as i remember...then he pick me up again back to my home.....

TGM XXI part 2

huehuehuehe....
uhm....what i post last time??
my journey 'till bakahuni i think.....
okay...we'll continued that now.....
so...after we arrived a bakahuni,,,we continue the trip to cetya Lampung...
but here is the problem....about 6 or 7 pm, when my bus stopped at the restaurant 'Siang Malam' andall the participant goes to WC and take a rest for a bit.....the driver and mechanic was fixed the bus...
first, we think it.s just take a moment....but until 1 hour, the bus still not done yet....
and two others bus still wait for us in the oter place...but at 8pm we all decided that bus 1 and 2 should go to cetya Lampung without us....and we still waiting the bus fixed...but the bus can'tbw fixed that time...so we decided to change the bus....man minto and Pak Ciang looking for the bus in bakahuni...and we all still waiting in the restaurant...we were waiting so long....uhm...about 10 or 11 pm we just find the bus...after negotiated and moved all the stuff, finally we all can continued the trip at 12...pheww.....

first day at Pendopo....
after for hours at the road....for about27 hours...finally we all arrived at Pendopo, SA Plantation, the place that TGM XXI held...
we all arrived at 1 pm...and immediately went to the big tent to Dokyo Sodai and opening ceremony...then it continued with lunch and fitting the tent...(but i can't fitting the tent, bcoz i must take a bath and helped irene to ice breaking...but the ice breaking was canceled...hikz....)
bcoz we all was tired enough in the road, so the agenda today was not many...just gosyo and a little games then briefing for hiking in the next day...

second day in Pendopo......
this day was started by hiking around the Oil Palm plantation...exactly not around all of the plantation bcoz its so huge....we just walking for some kilometres...
all the committee was got ready since 4.30 in the morning...when the sun not rise and the sky still so dark...the participants gathered in front of the emergency kitchen and the tent at 5am...after all the participants gathered and lined up with their team, the first shift walking together....then after some minutes, the second shift started walking too...
we all around the plantation and back to tend at about 8...and we all take a bath and breakfast...
this morning agenda was gosyo (teams discussion) which is divided to 3 teams, SMP, SMU, and college student and the young...its just flow like usual...then we all have lunch and prepare our self to visit factory...yupz...we all went to the factory and saw the process....it's ended by the conclusion of palm oil....then this night agenda was gosyo again, which is explained about the history of Buddha Nichiren Daisyonin, altar equipment, and the meaning of Gongyo Daimoku....
this night was alsothe night to ordered the present (pempek and various krupuk)...and bcoz of this...finally i must go to sleep so late and counts more times bcoz the ordered data wasn't same with the money i received...(the money was more...)...huehuheuhee.........

third day in Pendopo.....
this day was started with the seminar from the delegation of Depdagri...and of course it's a formal event...when the delegation enter the room (the tent i meant), he was welcomed by traditional dance from Palembang, named Tari Tanggai...and of corse there are virtue which is consist of the committee....and of course this event was took place serious but relaxed...all of the participants none left the room, expect in 15 last minute, i was forced to leave bcoz there is a participant who were sick and she couldn't remained again...
afterwards...lunch and preparation for physical time....which is stand for some of little competitions, but i can't go along that...bcoz i must be in the pos 4...
it's so fun today....the physical time was held until afternoon and the we all take a bath...and dinner and of course...went to the big tent to watched performed from some participant, dancing, singing, drama, etc....yupz...it's a MalKes....was ended by impressions from some of the participants and we all took he pictures together...then, while we all the committee prepare for the campfire, the participants was enjoyed their snack (pempek...!)...
finally the campfire started at 11.30 at the nighr...but we all must ended this at 12 bcoz we must get up early in the next day (at 4 am) for demolished the tent and go to Palembang.....

fourth day....
yupz...it was the last day in Pendopo...
the committee was already get up and got ready since 3.30 in the morning...pheww....
then at 6 in the morning, participants ready for gongyo and have a breakfast...
then, of course it continued with demolished the tent and take a photos of us before we all walked to the bus...we all departed at 9 in the morning as my remember, and we all arrived at Palembang at 11.30 or 12...it's exactly a lunch time, but we must went to Pulau Kemaro with ship, so we all have our lunch at ship.....Pulau Kemaro is so beautifull... altough there is only a temple and pagoda and the tree of love....but we all get satisfied when took our photos there....
then we came back to Palembang...call in to museuem for a bit and then when to vihara Palembang to gongyo, closing ceremony, and distribution the presents...
we all arrived at vihara at 5 pm and back to bus at 7...we have our dinner in the bus...while we headed to Lampung...(back to Jakarta of course...)

We slept in the bus again...but now my bus not in trouble anymore....it's so fun...huehuehuhee....
we arrived at Bakahuni in the morning and cross the sea again...
we all arrived in Merak at 12 or 1...and we all went to JP again...
we arrived in JP at 3...and we all back to our home of course...its's so fun.....
i'll forgot this TGM...and wish that next year i will join the next TGM... ^^

TGM XXI

phewww....finally TGM XXI was done and ended succesfully...
uhm.....
i'll write all about TGM here...

started on saturday, 5 july...
i went to JP at 7.30 from my home....used taxi with cennie, c'indri, her mom, and my mom...
we all arrived at JP at 8...when we arrived, the registration has been begun and most of the participants gathered in the room...but...only the first bus was coming....we must waiting two other bus....
the distribution of souvenir took place until 9.00 but the bus did still not come, so all the participants and some of committee daimoku while waiting for the bus come...
the second bus came at 9.30 as remember....but we the committe wanted to make use of time well, so all the participants who occupied the bus 1 and 2 were arranged before to immediately rise the bus with their stuff..

but...after all the participants of bus 1 and 2 enter the bus and waiting here...the third bus was still not coming...uhm...we all must wait about half hour i think.....so...finally all of us just departed from JP at 10 or 10.30....to merak...i forgot what time it is when we arrived at merak...maybe 2 or 2.30 i think...
oh yeah...i almost forget...when the bus still in the toll road...my bus could stop for some minutes....for improve something...gears or something like that....
then, when we arrived at merak, after the bus enter the ship, all of us coming out from the bus and go to the top of the ship...i saw sea....it's so picturesque...i love that scenery....and so without felt that ship has arrived in bakahuni....it's 5 or 5.30 when we arrived in bakahuni...then we all must went to Cetya Lampung at first....
and now...the treasure was start...heuhuehehe...just kidding....

uhm.....i will continue it tommorow...bcoz i must go to JP now....

do i love him???

uhm...
i thinks for many times....and ask my self...
do i love him???
huehuehuehe....it's so poetics i think??
hehehe...but...last few days i feel so tizzy...coz he didn't call me or sms me...and i was also thinking bout so many matters bout myself...so, when he didn't contact me for a few days...i feel so tizzy n always thinking bout him...
uhm....am i really love him? or this is just a happy feeling coz there is someone take care of me and i don't want to lose that feeling...???
i try to searching into my heart and looking for the answer...but i not found the answer....
but i know....i take care of you...and i still open my heart for you.....

not in good condition

huehuehuhe......
i'm not in good condition now...
be a little sensitive...
dunno....even jokes, its can make me angry too....

uhm....it's 4 days before TGM...too many pending jobs and things confused me...
logistic...medicine...and MD too...
i just hope everything will be fine and well done...

sad...angry...rr....dunno...i miss him....so miss him....
i'll be waitig until friday...wait him call or sms me again...huhuu.....buncitz..what r u doing right now???

very busy month...

last saturday was jul bday....at friday night i waited till midnight n call him...just said hepy bday n talk a little...after that i at once slept because i was very sleepy...

last saturday i spent my time in JP...i arrived at JP around 9.30 in the morning 'till 7 in the night....when i arrived i direct to the room and started gongyo and daimoku 'till 10.30...then i went to meeting room, there were c'may, lena, bagus, irene, n ko'feb...while waited the others...we all started talking about 'apresiasi GM' n c'may decided to change that with sesi gosyo 3...that contained discussiond about altar equipment and the conduct of gongyo daimoku...we all planned to make a video and take some photos to help the moderator explain and increased the interest of participants TGM and i will edit that photos and video....

times goes by so fast and it's already afternoon, all of us went ate behid JP 'till 2.30...and finally....we open the meeting at 2.30....so many things to disscussed and at 5 c'may should back home...so we all continued the meeting without c'may and cung lead the the meeting 'till 7...it's so tired me.....and finally i back to home with lena....so tired.....

then last sunday...there's dance exercise at 10 morning...an like usual....they were late....when all of us arrived...c'sel still not came...then we all talked about our costums and what things i must buy....so the exercise started at 11 when c'sel caming and ended at 12...bcoz i must went at 1...i went to TA with jul...watched Kungfu Panda...and then ate Pizza....then i gave him his bday's gift...then he picked me up to my home...i arrived at 6...when i arrived at home i felt so tired..i went to my room...and i asleep till 9 at night.....but i was so happy can celebrated jul bday.....

tonight is the day of brifieng TGM...not was felt that TGM will be held 11 days again but to much preparation still not finish and i must preparing many matters....just prepare my self and sure myself that i can....

last weekend

last friday i went to intan's house to pray for her father.....it was 3 years after her father dad...
from my office i went to harmoni used busway n i must met irene here...but went i arrived at harmoni, irene said that sindhy want to go there too...so i waited for them and ko afen...
i walked to asaba while waited them, but lena and asti come first after me, then ko afen...irene and sindhy was late again!!! we all convoy (3 motorcycles) to intan's house...and we met margi in the middle, and then 4 motorcycles were convoy....
when we all arrived, daimoku was already start, we all go upstairs and when we all sit, dokyo sodai was started...it about an hour i think....then we all ate, intan n her fams prepare some food, rice, pudding, oranges, and the other....it's so fun for me...gathered, talked n played with them until night...so fun.....then we all back to home at nine....we convoy again, lena with sindhy, ko afen with asti n i with irene....

uhm...nothing happened in saturday as i remember.....
in the night jul called me, talked for sunday's plan.....we talked about half hour....then after that i went sleep.....

and finally...sunday....it was a very tired day for me...
i had dance exercise at 7.30 in the morning!!!!....we had exercise until 9.30 because the room will be used for daimoku....then i back to my home...take a shower and prepare my self for MF Ultah....MF Ultah held in Kijang campus on 12.00...
in 11.20 i went to syahdan...n met fenny, then we went to kijang used M24....
when i arrived there, jul was already arrived to, and we walked together...and the bad thing...argi saw i, jul and fenny...
okay.....one fatal mistaked!!!!
these event its fun enogh...but the sound was bad.....but it's really fun....then....the second thing that was so odious....when MC asked senior to said about their ....i forgot the MC's name....hehehe....but she asked jul for come to the front....and....alfred point me too....so...i n jul come to the front...and they take photos of me n jul!!!!
n the last....!!! okay...they did'nt see me and jul together...but nuke said something in front of me, jul, and the others 04....she said to jul to bring me to my home....and jul just smile....and bernard was worse....he scream to me, for waiting jul....huaaaaah....
i and the others 04 used M24, but i alighted in syahdan...i waited jul here....then we went to CL...i bought HP for my mom...and then we went to gramed for a while....then jul pick me up to my home... ^^ he's so kind to me...

BION 2008...???

last friday....i went to BION at MTA...
i went at night, from my office...i went to CL with busway...
and jul wait me there...then we go to TA with him new motorcylcle...
uhm...nothing special at BION....it's so usual....i meet Ryan too there...we talked a little....
after talked with some of the committee, we went to hokben...ate dinner...and talked each other...
then i bought rotiboy...then we back to home at 9 PM...jul picked me up to my home...

the...saturday....like usual, there was MD exercise...i felt hopeless...and want to give in...dunno...maybe it's becaused i so tired of everything......hopes that i can withstand 'till the end....

finally... ^^

finally........last night we'd performance saman again in cetya Fajar...
for celebrate cetya Fajar birthday... ^^...
yesterday...i went back home at 4 PM from office....fortunately....my boss gave me permission to came home earlier.......then i ate...take a shower and went to Fajar.....
i arrived at Fajar at 6 PM....and we did make-up...style our hair, etc....then we prepare our custom...it's finished at 7 PM...then we went upstairs...singing "happy birthday" and waiting the opening ceremonial...then....that was our turn....
i'm so happy...although still there are some mistakes...but so little....and audience didn't know about that... ^^
then we went downstairs, change our custom with our own clothes, cleaned our make up...and went upstairs again and ate some food... :D listen some of them karaoke and posed for some photos...
after that...i went home at 9 PM...

fiuhhhh......now i can focus on my MD team...

miss that moment... ^^

finally... last weekend i spend my time with jul....
he pick me up from binus and we went to puri...ate KFC...walk around puri and watching movie at night....we watched forbidden kingdom...the movie was end at 8.45 as i remember...
then he bring me to my home....
we talked very much...about his new home, etc....

yesterday he send me a sms, asked if i want to go with him to test drive his motorcycle....i say yes...i he asked if i ever went to PM? uhm...maybe next month we will go to PM..?

btw....i mad to lanny.... :(
about a week i can't call her...and she did'nt reply my message....
but yesterday she call me when i was in office....
okay...its make me feel better...but..at night...i can't connected with her again....
what's happened with her???

ouch...my teeth... >.<

so sad.....
my teeth's sick....
i can't enjoy my food.....
i want 2 sleep to forget bout this illness....but i can't...
i must finished my jobs....
hikzzzzzzzzzz.........

uhm...actually...i wanna tell him bout my illness...but it can be disturb him...
moreover he is busy with his hob and his mid test.....
but its so hurts........
hopes my teeth will be better and recuperate soon....

long time no post...???

long time no post....huehehehe....

last saturday my saman's group already show off...
that was my best...i did so many mistake... :((
and then...seem that dance affected something controversial...so i don't know if we will show off again in kensyu kartini or no....

then...sunday night...after i came home from ciapus...jul call me...we discussed about him...was he will buy a motorcycle or a laptop...so i just gave my opinion....hopes he can make a best decision... ^^

btw....this time i join to TGM's comitte...in teknis/operasional, in logistic exactly... :p
hopes i can give my best to TGM.....this TGM...we will go to Baturaja on july...uhm...maybe 4 'till 12 july...but we don't yet know bout the date exactly.....and....i and my dance team will show off our first MD in this TGM....hopes i will give my best to this TGM....

...nammyohorengekyo...nammyohorengekyo...nammyohorengekyo...

continue.....

Okay... continued that was postponed yesterday...
sunday...
I went to 'JlnPadang.... during me was in jp, suddenly he sms me...
only informed if he was the expenses of materials schotel....
Strangely i thought... so I replied, " kutunggu kiriman na ajha"....
Afterwards, in the night I chatted with him,
but the connection was error, so as his message not i received,
not long afterwards he sign off and afterwards phoned me.
he thought I was angry....and we talked some minutes.....

so sleepy today....... >.<

i feel so sleepy now.....
i've learning all about joomla since this morning....but it's like nothing...i don't understand it...
my head like want to be broken... ~*&^%$#@*^$@#%&~


okay...now i want to write bout my last weekend...
uhm....forget bout friday....

now...about last saturday...
like usual.....i had dance exercise...from 3 'till 6 PM...n know what???
at 4 PM, irene received sms from infrona....it's said that we have saman exercise at 6 PM that day!!!!
wew....finally we ended MD exercise at 5.30...i went home...ate some vegetables...and went to fajar......
we did the exercise without the teacher...just prepare coz our performance is next saturday....
it's till 8.15 PM and we all go to jelambar funelar parlour...
husband of Mrs. Irawati, our 'Dharma Duta' died that morning.....and...evidently...Mrs. Kristanti's mom died at the same day....and the room was besides each other..

ouuch...my foot...... >.<

hikz....my foot still sick....
it's slow my step...n its more hurt when i walk upstairs and downstairs...
in fact i must do saman exercise tonight.......
just hope i can do the exercise well tonight......

btw, yesterday morning janny's father was die...
and now still in atmajaya funeral parlour...but i regret that i can't go there....
yesterday i was late to ask teddy, okta, and the others if we could go together...and tonight i must go to fajar to do the saman exercise.....but i've already sms janny and sent her my sorrow message....sorry jan, i can't be there... >.<

now i still confused about my jobs....there are 2 job waiting for me...but my mind so blank now...
i can't thinking very well.....

3 last day.......

huaaaah....
2 days didn't go to office....
i have some story to write.........

start on friday night.........
i called with someone uhm...special maybe???

we talked about 2 hours...'till 11.45 PM...
we talked bout anything, school, works...my dreams, my plans and also bout his plans....
same like previously....apparently didn't believe on what happened to us in the past...
when we were talking, evidently we indeed had many similarities...
we wanted to go on holiday, go outside the city...we have same aim...even without realising we saw the calendar and saw the date that we can use to go on holiday...
we planned to buy the electricity oven...and we felt that we were wrong in our majors in college...i should attended the hotel class and available majors cooking...even so by him.....but we know we can't back to that time...that just our little regret maybe.......
we was lazy at doing the same thing......
moreover our thinking style still same...we have to many similarity to talked.....
at the end of the conversation, we talked again about i and him about 20 minutes....then when i saw the clock that was 11.40PM, so i decided to ended the conversation altough i love to talk with him......it was because he must work early in the morning...but he still asked me what i wanted to be done when we ended the call...it's sounds...he apparently wanted to accompany me until i fell asleep...wheter...i don't know....
and so, i joked if i not want to be reprimanded by him if he got up late, because that i ask him to ended the call again...and it's work...the call ended after we've joked each other........

then...saturday......
nothing special this day....
i alone at home....clean my room and some of my stuffs.......
i made mashed potato mix cream soup...
actually i want to made a cream soup...i wash the potato and ready to cut them...but i checked refrigerator and realised that ingredients i need was imcomplete....so i thought n looking all the ingredients that i had, then i mix cream soup with mashed potato..........it's really delicious....i want to eat more and more......

and the last....yesterday or sunday........
like usual, there were dance exercise...modern dance exactly...
we learn some new style...and that makes my body sick...
my legs, my hand, mw stomach was very hurt...until now...
i can't walk so fast because it's hurt me......

itz a blank2 mind.....

wkwkwkwkkkk........................
when i bout d title...its just my fingers typed it...just thoght d song 'big big world'....

but i hv no big world...juz hv a blank mind..........
last night i didn't come 2 dance exercise....
it'z coz of rain...i wait till 8 pm....i has begun 2 be lazy 2 go...then sms from irene just received @ 8.30 pm....
so my decision was not go 2 fajar.........

n fortunally, last nights didn't hv a new style...only formats of the dance n do the exercise from the beginning 2 the end..., no longer dance in part....

okay...now i feel that i hv big headache...
english is too difficult...since i don't use it again for months....
it'z one of my ways 2 learn it again so i can learn other language that i want......

unemployment

okay...maybe thiz title make some people confused??
huehuhehe....yezz...i still working...
but today was really relaxed 4 me...

as usual, itz really dull in office and thiz time...can say that i just hv a little jobs to 2...
i could wacth vcd and browsing all the day....hohohoooo.....

but i must save my energy
coz tonight there is a practice...tonight the turn of d saman dance exercise...
but sindhy said that she can't come tonight....

laziness

dunno...
in the last few day...i felt very lazy....
lazy 2 do my works...lazy 2 thinking....

i feel my life now really boring...monotonous...
juz still trying 2 make my life more colourful...

in recent times..i've think 2 reorganised my life...
start from my self, my activities, my famz, my frenz, n last...my workz....
i still dreaming 2 work @ a HRD division in any company...

really confused n don't know must say what.......

okay...itz start again.......

uhm...
it start again..........i make a blog.....
uhm...it sounds....dunno...something unbelieveable....!!!

after all that happened in d past...
finally i use it again....

when i started 2 thinking...
juz hopes that it's a good choice...
i juz mizz 2 write anything that i feel.....
n can make me better 2 know bout my feeling deeply....